April 1

I know I haven't posted on this site for a while....I have had many experiences in the past few months that I am just not ready to share yet. We are approaching the year mark of our sweet baby girl...April 1, 2009.

I have mixed emotions about it....am I sad because that is what is expected from me? Am I supposed to mope around all the days leading up to this great milestone? Or am I supposed to be happy and not allow myself to go to "that place" emotionally? What are we even "supposed" to do on April 1?

And honestly, I can't believe a year has gone by already. And what I have come to terms with for my own self, is that I need to keep myself busy. I don't want to wallow in self-pity and negative thoughts, I want to REMEMBER what we learned and gained from one of the hardest times in our lives.

So, I am going to be grateful that we have an angel watching over us--and have had an angel watching over us for the past year.